Cure for the Heartache

 I’ve been down and low for the past many weeks after a petty squabble with someone that hugely grew out of proportion.  The argument had its roots, but as in most cases, we ended up arguing about how to argue.  It was heart-wrenching to go through the hurting for so long especially when I am the type who would sulk in silence rather than dish the dirt to just anyone I would talk to.

 

While the misunderstanding has yet to be resolved (or no not never, I hope not), I am moving on and moving forward.  Although it’s easier said than done, I am getting by with the endless love and understanding from my all-time confidant – Sherwin, who else.  I realized that I don’t have to look too far and ask where’s everybody else when you already have him right in front of you.  He telling me “You always have me” is just icing on the cake.

 

When the weather hit above 35C the past week, knowing me as a tightwad esp with utilities, he sent me a note from work asking me not to scrimp on electricity, turn on the A/C and he will just work extra hours to pay for our comfort.  When eating, he gives me the best part of the chicken (but the leg is non-negotiable).  He gives me the last piece of sansrival because he knows it’s my favorite.  He gets the burnt pork BBQ stick so I will not have it.  He washes the dishes for me if I am tired.  He changes Stefan when I have had too much to deal with already.  He listens to my bakya showbiz and blog talks.  He watches Entertainment Tonight, America’s Next Top Model, Desperate Housewives, and the likes with me (but I watch Prison Break & NBA with him, too).  He allows me to leave the curtain open to sleep so I can see the moon and the stars from my side even if it’s bright at his.  He is always concerned if I am getting enough rest, enough sleep, enough drink, etc.  He would let me drive the nicer car.  He trusts my fashion sense.  And my opinion about everything, to him, is just as important as his own. 

 

These are just a few of those sensitivities that you never would have expected from someone.  In high school these could be the equivalent of what would have been kilig moments.  But to me, it’s the cure for my (every) heartache. 

 

Wedding & Anniversaries (July 2002-2007)

 

"It seems right now that all I've ever done in my life is making my way here to you.  This kind of certainty comes but once in a lifetime."

– Bridges of Madison County